Trials and Tribulations

Gail, I say Amen to what you have posted. When you are in business for yourself, you must produce to have an income. The income is allowed after the outstanding bills and overhead are paid, what is left is ours. If we do not work or produce, we do not make an income. There is no one on whom we can rely, but ourselves.

When people are in a quarantine situation, there is less business coming to the door, so less income. If we are working at home, we have a little more flexibility until those who purchase our product or service lose their income. So what we do is lift our eyes and see the positive. I am glad not to be in that situation any longer. I have jumped in with both feet; my decision is made with the determination to learn this crazy technology and to do well with Compumatrix.

The above is a comment to a post I wrote on August 4, 2020. It led me to think about the new normal. What is the new normal? For so many of us, the routine changes all the time. Things seem to be going along fine, and you’re on top of the world. As many of you know and have experienced something happens, broken bones sprained ankles, dislocated shoulders.

Any number of things that can hit even a tragedy, the loss of a loved one, be they physical, mental, or medical. We are none immune to life, and what it brings, it is how we deal with it that counts. Trials will make us or break us. I may get down for a bit, but I choose by God’s grace not to stay down and be broken. The medical issue is what happened to me, June 2017. I will need to give a little history here. Forgive my being so personal.

On Friday, June 2017, I had an attack of vertigo and nausea and had lost hearing in my right ear. I managed to get to my recliner and did not move unnecessarily. I stayed in the recliner all weekend. I went back to work on Monday. I still was off a bit but needed to be at work, as I was a caretaker of an elderly lady that was also a close friend of mine since 1985. We were like sisters, we liked the same things, and our hearts and minds were alike. We would have lunch together once or twice a week every week. We traveled to the beautiful mountains of North Carolina several times a year.

When she started having heart issues, she asked me to look after her. She said I could anticipate what her need was before she knew herself. Thus I became a full-time caretaker for over six years. We were together every day and many times all night, too, until October 12, 2017, at the age of 94, when she passed and left me much grieved. I shut down, mentally, physically, and emotionally for several months. My husband was also going through heart surgeries, and many hospitalizations at this same time. Thank you my chat room support team for your prayers, you do not know how much I appreciated you being there for me.

I was a member of Compumatrix at this time, and KevinB, bless him, helped me as much as he could. It was difficult to communicate because it was so hard to hear. Before this, I was in the chat room all the time and enjoying my interaction with everyone. The dizziness was mild but would escalate as well as nausea when I was on the computer. Therefore, I had to stop for a while. Thus another new norm for me.

On July 5, 2019, I woke up after a fantastic fourth of July with all our family and friends, to debilitating vertigo, nausea, and total silence. I was like a rag doll with no control. My husband called 911, and I spent four days in the hospital. I was as a newborn needing help. After leaving the hospital I had to go every Friday for three weeks to have steroid shots in my left ear, it was too little, too late. Kevin and I tried to stay in touch as things were changing in Compumatrix. With the hearing loss, it became impossible. Kevin kept up with my business for me, even though he was going through trials of his own, one being the loss of his precious wife. A new normal for him now.

In February of 2020, I had cochlear implant surgery. I was to go back in April to attach the hearing device to the cochlear implant; of course, I could not go at that time because of the COVID virus. I went in June of 2020 to receive my hearing device. Did I want this change in my life? Did I want to have this type of surgery? Did I want to wear a hearing device? No, but I am so thankful to be able to hear.

I heard my three youngest great-grandchildren for the first time. To listen to the rain, birds, and voices of those around me, is beautiful. I will now be able to hear Henry, David, Erline, and Gail when we have our next meeting. I am overjoyed. Out of sorrow comes joy. So this is my new normal.

We all go through things, but life renews us, and we become stronger. We become advocates of turning frowns into smiles. I smile because I am so thankful for Compumatrix. I can now focus on my business. We are ready for whatever the new normal will be!

About the author

Carmen is a wife of 59 yrs., mother of five children, grandmother of 10 grandchildren and great grandmother to 6 great-grandchildren. She embraced the world of technology and became a member and a committed advocate of Compumatrix International.


  1. Thank you, Carmen, for sharing your story. So sorry for what you’ve had to go through. It is difficult to stay positive when facing so many obstacles, be it medical issues, financial issues, or life’s stressful situations. But you are an inspiration to us because your faith and perseverance helped you stay positive. I’m glad we are on this awesome journey in Compumatrix together. It will be such a reward for all of us who kept the faith. Thanks, Carmen, for your story and thanks Compumatrix for being there for us. We are ready. ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. Thanks for sharing Carmen. It has been difficult for many of us as the normal challenges have become amplified with COVID. I feel there is light at the end of the tunnel, especially with Compumatrix and cryptocurrency. It is a delight reading the stories and feeling the excitement of a brighter future.

  3. Bless your heart, Carmen. I’m so glad we have a place where we can share and chat and enjoy the close-knit group that we have in Discord. I have grown so close to so many of you and it blesses me to know each of you. You have been through a lot with your medical issues and I am so pleased you have gotten your hearing back!! There is such beauty in the sounds of nature. Sometimes I just sit outside and close my eyes so I can just listen to nature’s symphony. Nothing like it!!

  4. Thank you for sharing Carmen, Vertigo is no joke. I had a friend, something in her inner ear was off and she walked bent to the left. She said it felt normal to her but it was an awful way to have to live. We finally got her under control. We all have been hit some sort of obstacles along our path in Compumatrix but sounds like we are looking great! What a blessing Kevin has been. I think he has a huge following of very Thankful people! I know I’m one.

  5. Carmen, thank you for sharing your story with all of us. Your perseverance in the face of many obstacles is an inspiration to more than you will ever know. I know in times of challenge we can either give up or forge ahead into the unknown. For so many that unknown is so frightening that they never take that first step. People here in Compumatrix support, pray and encourage like no other company I have known. It is a blessing and I am so pleased to know you have been and will continue to be in ‘good hands’ as well as supported.

  6. as i go around here and read the postings and replies and put in perspective all the bits and pieces that each of us go thru in some way or some fashion — it is So Inspiring to know if you believe and do not ever stop moving forward and correctly mostly — that old adage of this too shall pass — is true — and having lost many of my closest over the last 20 years — Life does and also having a Child and helping n watching her Grow — also be plus — but So much great works in your writing Carmen and hope its okay always in my prayers —

  7. Carmen thanks for sharing your experiences so openly. Very well done on getting back up! For as the sayings goes it doesnโ€™t matter how hard or how many times you are knocked down, what matters is that you get back up. I salute your courage and you are an inspiration to us all.

  8. With everything put aside, Compumatrix is a family business. I have never been involved in a business where we truly feel we are all one family as with this business. Carmen, your blog is a testament to who we really are here at Compumatrix. Thanks for putting this in perspective through your life and experiences.

  9. Thank you for sharing your story with us Carmen, I can identify with your vertigo and loss of hearing, as I went through it for a while. I was fortunate to have only lost hearing in my left ear thank God. Having vertigo whenever it felt like attacking me, took me out of the job market where I needed to go out to work, so I worked from home and was very grateful that I was able to do so. I have not had any attacks for at least 1 year now and I am really happy about that. I am looking so forward to being able to work Compumatrix now that my new normal is having a home office.

  10. WOW , Carmen .. you sure went through a lot ..So glad things turned for the best for you.. Thank you for sharing your life and story with us here . One never knows what one day to another will bring.
    Look at Corona-19 that has changed all our lives all around the world ..One day freedom to live our lives to the next day being stuck in our homes only allowed out to get food and go to the doctor. We just don’t know what tomorrow brings.
    We all will survive what is thrown at us.

  11. Thank you Carmen, it sounds like you been through so much, however how wonderful that there were people who stepped in to help from unexpected sources.
    Actually thinking back to a few ‘calls’ where a lady had left her microphone on as she gossiped to her friend on the phone about all her troubles and woes. With your own hearing affected you didn’t need to listen to it ๐Ÿ™‚
    We don’t realise how we take health for granted until something is wrong, so I am thrilled that you can hear the wonderful sounds around you that bring you joy.
    Now that is REALLY special.

  12. Carmen.. you went through so many Trials and Tribulations…More than most , but you were strong and came through it . That shows you are a strong person . So glad you shared your story with us. Everyone here can relate in some form or another with you and feel your pain that you had to go through .. So glad you are with us here in Compumatrix .. You made it girl.
    Good going !.

  13. Every person’s life has the opportunity for uncertainty with emotional ups and downs. Losing your hearing and losing a close friend had to carry great stress and loss. It brings me great joy to know Carmen, your hearing was restored through medical technology giving you the ability to hear the voices once again of loved ones.
    Human resilience is truly amazing as we never know the struggle another person is having.

  14. Carmen, you are truly a shining star role model to our Compumatrix family. It is so admirable that you were able to persevere and overcome your challenges even if it did take some time, and it would have been easy to give up. A new normal is what we live from the day we are born with changes happening all the time, and if we all try to go with the flow in a positive way like you did, we can have a happy, productive life too!

  15. Well, you have been through a lot Carmen, but at the scripture you quoted alludes to, the trials and tribulations are working a great character in all of us. I am thankful for all the things that brought difficulty and actually a lot of pain in my life. They moved me to look and seek for God. We try to control all we can in our lives, but God has a way of letting things happen that are so out of our control that we really have no choice but to turn to Him. So much good in the end comes from those difficult times.

  16. Thank you Carmen for sharing! My Dad used to always say that the first 100 years are the hardest – lol. I cannot imagine losing my hearing or my eyesight. I often think about what life would be like without any one of my senses! I certainly don’t want to experience that first hand and I am so glad, Carmen, that you have your hearing back. Our lives are fragile miracles!

  17. I can eempathise with all that. I am 83 and have a daily routine that I use to take all my medications etc.First thing inthe morning I have 4 tablets 3 of which my Doctor tells me are keeping me alive. I then instal my ear pieces and put my glasses on and am ready for my day.
    Lunchtime a bit of fibre and some preventative eye drops and some foof and fruit.
    Evening time an anticoagluant. I have Atrial Fibrilation and dont want a stroke or heart attack.
    When listed like this it sounds quite horrific but I am so used to it it just becomes routine.
    Better safe than sorry and when CDAp is in friendly mood some better hearing aids and a cataract operation so that i can aim for 90 Trust everyone keeps healthy and has a great time here.

  18. Thank you for your very positive and encouraging blog post. Life is certainly full of events that cause concern, harm, sickness and loss. Our attitude toward these happening in a large part determine how we fare on the other side of the events. Keeping in mind that God loves us and wants to turn negatives into positives in our lives is a very helpful mindset to maintain. It can help us to look beyond present negative to a brighter future.

  19. James 1:2-4 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall in to various trials,(3) knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. (4) But let patience have it’s perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete,lacking nothing. Perfect and complete as I believe Compumatrix will be. As far as a new norm anything that is not normal is abnormal so looking forward to getting back to normal.

  20. Wow, Trials, and Tribulations. I guess we have all seen our share of those. If you need one to think about you don’t have to look far either, as the Trials and Tribulations this whole world is experiencing with this COVID Virus is like nothing most have seen. Praying one day soon it will be eradicated.

  21. Carmen,
    Carmen,thanks for sharing your beautiful blog. I can see your life was filled with many health issues and obstacles. I am so glad you had the faith and strength to over come these difficult situations. Most of us in this old world will face various challenges is our life, but with faith and strength as you have demonstrated we will over come and become an even stronger person. Carmen, you have demonstrated to all who read this post, that many difficult challenges in our life can be over come by you faith and inner strength. Your experiences, although difficult have been a living example for us all

  22. Carmen,thanks for sharing your beautiful blog. I can see your life was filled with many health issues and obstacles. I am so glad you had the faith and strength to over come these difficult situations. Most of us in this old world will face various challenges is our life, but with faith and strength as you have demonstrated we can over come and become an even stronger person. Carmen, you have demonstrated to all who read this post, that many difficult challenges in our life can be over come by you faith and inner strength. Your experiences, although difficult have been a living example for us all

  23. Carmen, you have open your heart in sharing with us part of your life, I thank you for that.
    But in each difficult times, you have learned to overcome and come out strong.
    Putting your faith in the scripture and claiming that for your life, you are a winner.
    I know with all you have gone thru and your faith in Compumatrix it will all be worth the struggle and the reward will be bountiful.

  24. Carmen, what a beautiful story of overcoming! Congratulations! Life is full of unforeseen events and challenges, and with faith and determination we can overcome them all, as long as we are willing to do it, just like you did. We are all waiting for the big moment when we will be able to overcome some current difficulties and challenges with the opening of Compumatrix, and that will be fantastic!

  25. That is quite a story Carmen. All the things that you went through and overcame must have made a very strong woman of you. I admire your perseverance. At the same time, it makes me think that I have to be grateful that my life till now had hardly any trials and tribulations. Certainly, something to be thankful for.

  26. So sorry to hear you have had a rough few years I remember sending prayers to you that was very nice of Kevin to help you through it all. I am so glad you are doing better I remember my mom saying this to shall pass praying and it did. We all just have to keep on with life stay positive fear not love God and start working compumatrix.

  27. this is such a great story and the inspiration and positivity through out the read — You just keep going forward in ways and so much in life is just put there and we go through parts and stay Positive in our looks and actions and success is where we will get too — it is such a great read and the replies add so much to this blog —

  28. Carmen,You deserve credit for the courage,you put into all these situations,sometimes in life something happens to us that we never thought possible and we are completely broken but there is only one God who can hold us back.May God bless and prosper my entire compumatrix family. Amen

  29. Thank you for sharing what must have been a series of huge struggles for you and your family. And who doesn’t love and appreciate Kevin B. With help from people like Kevin, it is possible to have the courage to pull yourself through the most difficult times of your life. It is amazing how strong a person can actually be when they need it the most with so many challenges before them. Your positive attitude is so inspiring. You are in my prayers!!

  30. I am so glad that you have been able to rely on your friends at Compumatrix to help you make it through difficult times. You seem to have remarkable endurance and determination. I wear hearing aids and so I understand and appreciate your struggles you have dealt with and overcome with hearing loss.

  31. I can sympathize with having been sheltered in at home. For those within the Compumatrix community that may have had to change course within their careers as a result, Compumatrix is a good opportunity. Having the extra time will be good for reading up on the business and understanding all the changes that have been implemented.

  32. still sharing here at our Blog area with such inspiring reads and memories of Trials and Tribulations and knowing You are stronger and thru your work you have helped others be stronger or at least be open to continue on correctly in their journey and know that so much happens to each of us — thank you again great read —

  33. Thank you, Carmen … I read your post again and sense then so many things have happened to me and to so many others ,I am sure of . , I to have gone through a lot , nothing I want to repeat .. Things that changed my life and the way I think. Discord has kept me grounded , take my mine off of the pain. There is nice helpful group of members in the Compumatrix discord room .

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